OMG its really scary when u are unable to read what other people thinks.
you wont know when they are actually plotting something bad against you.
this is the most confuse stage of my life.
i'm really lost and i dont know what i should do.
shld i stay in nyp until i officially receive a reply from nyp or shld i just get a new job now.
i dont feel like wasting my time there now that i know i'm not really interested in the course.
i dont wanna waste my money getting the notes and paying the funds.
i hate to regret, but i kinda regret not putting more effort so i will have more confident like joanne. quitting is so much easier for her but not for me.

sometimes i really hate myself so much!
i really hope god can show me the way this time!

i'm really angry with myself for being so naive thinking that we can be friends.
i never though someone will ever look upon me this way.
noone is suppose to judge others like that!
i finally come to realise that! hahaha